davon's interlude. Video (MV)

Look
I been searching for knowledge on how to treat a woman
'Cause lately I've had a lot of issues I really shouldn't
I been focused on loving less and more on libido
Boy you only stroking pussy to help with ya ego
The other day I had a deep conversation with J
I swear she really good at making my ego deflate
One of the few who gon' say the shit that I need to hear
Too immature so I'm actin' like I don't really care

But I can see that my mood is changing and gettin' dark
I used to light up her spirit now I'm losin' my spark
I'm gettin' mad at her distance when I pushed us apart
She gave the love that I needed but I stepped on her heart, damn
My spirit is too conceited I'm trying to fight off these demons
That's steady feedin' and trying to Davon into a different being
My momma said treat them women how you wanna be treated
'Cause every action you makin' is reflection of me
And you know that's not the way that I raised you to be
I really didn't wanna hear it, but the lecture was needed
I couldn't even argue with the words she was speakin'
'Cause if somebody hurt momma I'd be having a fit
And if somebody hurt Kyra I'd be ready to flip
And if somebody hurt Krystal I'd be ready to trip
Oh shit, I'm really a f*cking hypocrite

Too many times I've defended faults with excuses
By using my trauma to justify the way I was movin'
Was claimin' it was love but it wasn't 'cause I was lackin' cupid
Mr. Lovett still got a lot of room for improvement
I'm hopin' my present doesn't affect my future
Got me kinda scared to have a daughter
'Cause I been fearin' that maybe she'll be hit with my karma
And now she facin' repercussions because of her father
Not ready for them times I gotta hit her with them speeches
When somebody leave her speechless
'Cause somebody's son decided he should treat her a way that she should never be treated
That's the type of shit that make you start handin' out beatings
But then I started thinkin', could I really be mad?
As many times I was treatin' somebody's daughter bad
As many times I was havin' somebody's daughter weepin'
As many times that I was trippin' and thought about cheatin'
And though I never did it, it's the fact I considered
Hurtin' the one I'm 'sposed to love, through the thick and thinnin'
Was cravin' other bitches, thought that's what I was missin'
While I was barely in it, she was fully committed
Apologies were given, but I didn't do the labor
That's when I learned the best apology is changed behavior
I need to grow up, too many said it
I'm twenty three but mentally I'm really like eleven, damn

There's more to women than pretty titties and finger f*ckin'
There's more to women than pretty faces and pussy suckin'
There's more to women than curvy asses and booty rubbin'
They never told me that growin' up is a tricky maze
A young adult who's still stuck in his kiddie phase
I pray that God can free me from all my childish ways