Summer Lonesome Video (MV)

Hard to sit behind these walls with extra space for the summer
Feel refreshed and now it's overkill, Summer Lonesome
And even though my thrill for the impossible's the solution
Unfortunately I'm caught up in some idled free time
I'm slaved to insecurities and this burst of bliss that keep my hands between my lap to keep from panicking
Slaved to insecurities and this burst of bliss that keep my hands beneath my ass
Slaved to insecurities and this burst of bliss that keep my hands between my eyes
Don't panic Lord, each of these took place at different times
I come to you with clean hands, See
Can hardly pick up both my knees to keep up with ambition that's leading me to the dark
Gasping for air with a wheeze and some pain, looks like I'm preparing to sneeze or my heart jus
It's easier keeping her pleased through the phone
And I'm best with the cash when there's nothing I owe
And I'm only obedient to rebellious ways that I'm on right now
No mom I won't stay, I'm feeling denounced
Depressed and it's dark and I'm done f*cking round
I'm showing my teeth and the blood that flows out, just to show you that I'm calling all my fears out
And I'm pimping my pain for the world to give you
And I'm crying right now reminiscing this proof that I'm seeing alone
Hard to sit behind these walls with extra space for the summer
Summer Lonesome

Hard to sit behind these walls with extra space for the summer
Can't hear them chains so now they feeling real
And I been crossing fields of my emotions all deeper colors
Showing me the dangers of my comfort when I'm caught crawling in crossfire with multiple punctures
And they'd say it's the co-parent structure
Plus I'm black and there's nothing further
I just want to achieve the other
Be more than these cliche motherf*ckers
Apologize that you feeling flustered
But I'm just gone keep evolving this culture and stop all this mindless fluttering to get to know me
Rephrasing life for my memoir
No more asking for a moment so it's f*ck em as I'm making moves to ball
And I'm coming off a bit too hard cause they expecting this not to get far
But as I sit and think about it, energy I'm bringing right on point and all so I ain't sorry nigga nah, Sorry mom
Damn I need some calls
Ain't got the rent but wonder how long I can stall
Shit that keeps me strong is overcoming looking like cliche icons
Same cup different straws, make it hard to watch
And I'm building more than them niggas bite off from
Proven as the proof to peeps and rule the world with her and this bulge
Hard to sit behind these walls with extra space for the summer
Summer Lonesome

I hold my thoughts for peace and that's why you don't have any at mind
Tip toe them talks about the future I don't wanna cross that line
Can't fully getcha hopes up, all them pieces missing from the last time
The words I'm having trouble finding you expose in ways so concisely
Why must we fight
Feels like every little thing I do will set you off tight
I just wanna sit and build myself without feeling wrong, but our issues get spread, these walls talk
But I don't wanna be the one that set me free
I don't wanna be the one that set me free
But I don't wanna be the one that set me free
I don't wanna be the one that set me
I don't wanna be the one that set me
I don't wanna be the one that set me free

Tasting the iron that pools between my teeth
Kindling fire with my thoughts that wish to speak all for ya smile
I sacrifice emotionally
All for ya smile I'm numb to what we truly need
Hard to sit behind these walls with extra space for the summer