In My Spaceship Video (MV)

When my mind has been racing and I wanna escape this
I take off from the pavement and I hop in my spaceship
From the couch in my basement, not an ounce of frustration
I step out of this matrix, when I hop in my spaceship
When my mind has been racing and I wanna escape this
I take off from the pavement and I hop in my spaceship
From the couch in my basement, not an ounce of frustration
I step out of this matrix, when I hop in my spaceship

I've known from my birth
That I don't really belong on this earth - home is not dirt
So, I go search
Constantly looking for something
Anything to cope with this hurt
Hope that it works
Even though I know that it's limited and won't put an end to it
All of my worth feels tied to all of my work
God, I know that won't work
That's when I begin to pursue amusement
There's gotta be a way to reduce this nuisance
And alleviate a situation that I really hate
I won't tolerate one more silly game
You want me to waste away for your gain
Without the decency to communicate?
You can take your unrealistic expectations
I'ma leave it all behind without explanation
Maybe I can enter the grid
And get a Clu from chillin' with Flynn
When we get it in I'll ask if it was worth resistin'
When there'll never be a perfect system - not on this grid
Switch analogies
I'll escape to a galaxy where I won't face my reality
Say goodbye to the pain and the agony
And getaway from the hatred and casualties
Here - death's just a game mechanic
My fear fades away
I replace the panic of aimless grasping
With a community
Given a clear task completed in unity
No ambiguity, finally found my place
In a world that I wasn't powerless to change
Now in a virtual reality is where I reside
And I've never felt more alive

When my mind has been racing and I wanna escape this
I take off from the pavement and I hop in my spaceship
From the couch in my basement, not an ounce of frustration
I step out of this matrix, when I hop in my spaceship
When my mind has been racing and I wanna escape this
I take off from the pavement and I hop in my spaceship
From the couch in my basement, not an ounce of frustration
I step out of this matrix, when I hop in my spaceship

As I re-enter the atmosphere racked by fear
Paralyzed by everything I have to bear
Feeling lost and abandoned here
All the while held up to a standard I can't come near
My path - littered with demands I could never meet
Though I try I can't craft a better me
Remembering everything that I once dreamed
And how many of my hopes will never come to be
Wondering - is this really what You had in mind in Your grand design?
Will I ever be satisfied?
I know I should be glad - "all I have is Christ"
But my excuse of a life's why He had to die?
Thinking back on every way that I've failed
Every time I turned my back on Love and hatred prevailed
Feel the weight on the scale - I don't stand a chance
It's as if God's wrath was an avalanche
Sometimes I really hate my life
And some days it feels like I've no strength to fight
Though I believe in Christ, prone to retreat and hide
In other things that could never redeem my time
At times I fool myself like I'm better than this
But I'm blessed where I live, help me never forget
You said You forgive. So it's settled, I guess
But I'd rather peddle to death in resentment and stress
Than repent and then rest, but You never relent
Though I fall - won't rescind Your request
And You have promised to accomplish what You've started
And I will never again have to venture to guess - or settle for less
You are the beginning and the end
All else, just a glimpse of the peace in Christ
Fully known, fully loved - eternally satisfied
At the moment that my spirit takes flight

When I'm tired and impatient, Lord, I will stop and embrace it
Though I am drawn to evasion, help me to not be persuaded
The world? They can take it. In You, there's no deprivation
And they can look at Your cross for my identification
Sometimes I fall on my face, but I will not be forsaken
Because Your love is not dependent on my own dedication
So when I'm blind and I'm jaded, give me sight for Your greatness
Sustain my faith until the day You reassemble the fragments

Swing low, sweet spaceship
Swing low, sweet spaceship
Come and carry me home