Learning Stages - Disorganized New Year Lyrics

I'm in a new year with half a winter left
Mental collision alerted by the earth's white crest
Summer left me optimistic standards that I've failed to meet
A few hair ties that I probably shouldn't keep.

I would draw you a picture
If it'd change your perception of me
It's kind of unfair
What your emotions have been for weeks

It's not easy
To hold this in my chest
I don't know what set you off
From me

A week has passed and it seems you can't find me
I've been here all along, I'm not sure if you're looking or if I'm just waiting for you
To tell me you've given up already

I'm not in a hiding place
Don't tell me I'm being elusive both nights and days

I realize you've given up so I guess I'll get out of your way