People With Bodies - Boy Lyrics

I used to be a boy / part of me always will be
My backyard was a kingdom
A realm of beasts and sorcery
Wanted to be a man / Wanted to be a werewolf
To see the world like bugs do
And salt the snails with grandma too
We found a box of dildos / in our friend's mom's closet
We all laughed for a minute / but we all secretly wanted it
I came inside the house / I saw he was naked
Distant look in his eye / His dad's gun in his left hand
Couldn't be sure if he was joking when he pointed it at me
Would I go to heaven? If he pulled the trigger would it go...