Realitay - I'm Prayin Lyrics

I'm prayin that I'll have a purpose in this life
All this pain has to lead to something good right
I'm not like all the other kids
I dropped out cause I'm focused that's just how it is
I always pave my own way
We only live once so I ain't throwing this away
Anxiety's got the best of me
My minds always racing like I'm pazzin on some weed
I always have this empty feeling it's like I'm dreaming hang the rope around the ceiling
Feeling like I don't belong here
Feeling like I'm living in a deep pit of fear
Feeling like my heart's been stuck I need another beer to clear
All the f*cked thoughts that I fear
I don't care about the money man
I wanna find peace within now that's the real plan
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me
I'm always feeling so drained
I don't wanna do a thing I can't take this pain
I can't stand to see another day
I wanna go to sleep and slowly drift away
I'm always dreaming bout my old life
I took that shit for granted now I sing on this mic
To escape all my demons
I wanna find happiness where could it be huh
I wonder if I'll suffer all my life
My visions got me tripping out but I can still write
Write all about my feelings
There hard to manage everyday I'm slowly healing
My new outlook got me spinning out
My new outlook is rare better watch out
I'm trying to move to the next step
I'm trying to follow my dreams through this headset
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me
I'm trying to be the best that I can be
Even though I'm lost with no place I have to be
Gee can't find the energy to function
Procrastinating cause I find nothing fun and
I'm still drifting off in the day
My minds running from danger but there's none ay
I guess this is the story of my life
No one understands how much that I have to fight
To get through the day and night
Waking up in cold sweats welcome to my life huh
I'm eating heaps cause I can't smoke
I'm gaining weight cause it's like I can't f*cking cope
With all these challenges in my life I wish I was happy but I'm not gonna lie
My souls darker than I can explain
Serotonin running low my life is insane
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me
My mixed emotions are confusing me
My brains running on auto but I'm not free
I'm lonely as can be
Sitting on the couch dreaming bout the future me