wordsofaffirmation - At War with Self Lyrics

For what I thought
Would be okay
Ended up
Being the same
It doesn't help when you're at war with yourself
But I was only trying to help
I shouldn't say
Anything
As days become one
I start feeling numb
Days become one
I start, feeling numb
Disconnect me from my life
Watch me tear against myself
Disconnect me from my life
Drifting away from any sort of structure
My waking hours
I try to keep my head moving (as I crawl out the embrace the taunts me)
Wanting to ignore the life in front of me. (the thought of you rots away my brain)
Living through optimism, as a way of coping (day by day I sink more and more)
Waiting for things to fall into place. (engulfed in past memories my heart aches for)
But I know, I know (just let me relive this one last time, I want it to be the same)
It will forever be this way. (for the last time)
Away from myself
I thought you'd be
Away from myself
I thought you'd be
Would things just get better?
I thought you'd be
Drowning in darkness
Where's the light?
The light has gone
So watch me tear
Against myself
I wish
I wish
I wish
Things were the same.