Nightmares and dreams stack high on top of each other
Blood and Joy scream at each other until they break
Insults and intimacy fall off a glass table and violently shatter on the ground
Lies and love hold each other closer until they are one and the same
Life and death stare me down until I'm dumb and left alone with my thoughts
It all speaks to me at once and nothing is intelligible
What I see is repulsive
And I can't stop thinking about it
I must hate it
I must hate all of it
But I can't
I can't make any sense of it, but it's all me
I need to trust myself or my life is already over
Nobody else is going to move my life forward but me
So I accept all of it
I accept you