2ooDark - what do i even do atp bru Lyrics

I'ma f*cking kill myself so you'll never feel this way
I don't what else to tell you, how to vocalize my shame
Feel the same as I did when we met back in September
And I told you I was working on it, it did not get better
I know you're doin' bad but I feel I do you worse
Every time we see each other there's another outburst
Why we always gotta argue?
Why I'm making you upset?
If I always make you cry, why you even want me back
I'ma f*cking kill myself, so you'll never feel this way
I don't what else to tell you, how to vocalize my shame
Feel the same as I did when we met back in September
And I told you I was working on it, it did not get better
I'm a failure to my family, a failure to my love
Take a wad of tissue paper, fill my body when I'm gone
But I'm always f*ckin' trippin' and I'm always f*ckin' pissed
Why can't communicate without makin' it lyrics
This ain't f*ckin' normal, what's the definition of a waste?
I'm still rappin' everyday, making bitches drink my paste
But I'm not feelin' the comfort or the love 'less I'm with you
Every time I catch your scent I wanna cry
'Cause I miss you
But I'm, still the demon that's immortal when I walk outside
Still that nigga, keep it hidden that you in my life (Yuh)
All these women I keep trickin' like I'm here for life (Yuh)
You not Touka, you not gang, momma or my feline (Yuh)
Play these games, like I'm not playing with my own mind
Might be weird but I'm all I have for all of time (Yuh)
Tried to drink myself to death, but I just woke up fine (Yuh)
Tried to hang myself again, but I just hung there fine (Yuh)