347chriis - Staying to Myself Lyrics

Yeah, I'm sorry to myself cause I been feeling nothing
I can't even tell you how I feel one week
I know what is wrong, but I still don't wanna speak
Have you ever felt like your life was really nothing?
I was told to get my money up or go and get a life
I guess that I finally did, but now all I feel is strife
I turned my sadness into anger, I'ma soon crash out
My only way to get over some shit is just to make a song
Tell me one day that you care about me, then you'll leave
If we switch spots, I know I wouldn't even speak like that
It took way too long for you to change how you think
F*ck this love shit, I just want for you to leave
Please leave me alone cause I'm the worst one that you see
A hundred niggas walking, I'm the last one that you greet
And now I'm having regrets knowing I don't even think like that
A hundred times out of ten, you didn't even like me
I don't even tell nobody how I really feel inside
My only therapist is some headphones and a beat
Sometimes I just wanna lay back and just weep
Sometimes I just wanna go and jump in the street
Every time I sit back and relax, my mind gets cluttered
I guess I never really wanted better for myself
Now I'm f*cked up cause I lost myself too
I lost myself, love, and I lost that person too
I tried so hard to keep my own peace of mind
I can see now that you really wasn't mine
I miss all the times when I never gave a f*ck
That's a long time ago, I'm glad that I changed
And I know now that these people stay the same
You just as stupid as me for falling for a dumb trick
Man, I hope you never try to speak to me again
I'm gon' replace you just as fast as you can move on
All that detached shit gon' get you the wrong one
I understand where you're coming from though, your heart is hurt
Thanks for passing it on, I'm guessing you ain't try to do that
You can hurt me all you want, I know I don't deserve
My life's so f*cked up, I just crashed a car on purpose
I'm insecure about my face cause I got these eye bags
Since birth, I was never really the chosen one
I'm just a find-what-have-em type of ass-f*ckin' nigga
I've been staying to myself, focused on myself
I guess that's self-love, I guess I'm making some progress
I gotta build myself up, I just told you my mind was cluttered
I don't think I wanna be outside, I wanna stay in the crib
I think I love some company, so I'ma chill with my friends
I think I need some money though, I wanna stack up some M's
I'ma chill with my niggas and put on a fake smile
Cause I don't need nobody thinking if I'm feeling down
I understand why people disappear for like weeks
We all go through some shit where we can't even think
Like why the f*ck this shit just gotta happen to me
Like why the f*ck this situation in my head on repeat