4 Minute Sermons - Torn Lyrics

I'm torn apart please someone help
I'm falling apart please somebody help
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me
I'm torn by the scars I gave someone else

I always knew life wouldn't be easy
For me, or the guy I just said thank you too
And I have never helped anybody
Thinking that once I was done a thank you was due
I am not torn because of humanity
Or what any one person has ever done to me
I am torn because who I plan to be and who I am never once come into one you see
Maybe I see things in a different light
Maybe saying these things isn't right
Where did I go wrong what am I missing am I
Just explaining this in a twisted sight?
Please don't miss what I'm given I
Want you to see that Jesus died
Yes I know that I am forgiven but why am i?
Laying here praying asking God about what is right
Or what is wrong when it comes to sovereignty
Tell me God how I oughta see
Who you are and who I oughta be
Am I in the dark or in an odyssey
From the start were you not in me
Look in my heart I have God in me
How do I understand who I am in you
If I'm stilling yearning to understand what's true
I try to smile more than I cry
And every time walk away wiping my eyes
Is it suppose to be a never ending fight
Or am I over here just living a lie
Or is what I'm saying make sense in your brain
I wanna make sense of the pain
God I am torn apart and confused tell me who you are not peoples doctrinal claim
Someone closest to me told me to give the fear to God but truth is if I'm speaking openly
Why should I give all I got over to him off of the basis of I'm simply hoping he
Answers my prayers honestly all of these questions never cease to continue provoking me
I probably should shut up now cause all I'm learning is that once again is that ima broken being

I'm torn apart please someone help
I'm falling apart please somebody help
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me
I'm torn by the scars that I gave somebody else

I feel like my effort are some peoples biggest fears
At least that's how it appears
Pretty crazy I told that very thing to someone I still believe in and hold very dear
I guess I deserve the hurt the I'm feeling now
I preserved my worth into a bank account
Only to learn my worth wasn't in the bank amount
But whether or not you can learn to lay it down
And learn that the worth of a man is not the worth of a man
Or whether or he's got working hands
But whether or not he can be a godly man and become more than a godly plan
To live your life laying it down for another person
Praying into the night "God show me the purpose"
Hard to slay my enemies when I not a friend of me
Hard to not pretend I am more mature than I am
My biggest weakness isn't the struggle for meekness
I struggle with living for Jesus
I feel like I just blow every opportunity
And can never quite get to a proper unity
Even that's not what I'm trinna do you see
All I want to be in life is to be the happy couple
But my failures wont ever let that come to pass
Maybe I don't understand will I ever get past
Being torn left and right constantly be my past
Honestly talking about this is just pouring gas
I cant go anywhere cause I cant read this map
And I cant read the signs
Does anything last
If I don't become more than I guy
No matter how hard I try
No matter how far I climb
I feel like all I do is recline
Always giving a 10 outa 10
Feeling like I'm not worth a dime
I pray God forgive me even though I know I'll do it again
Once again do it to him
Why do I feel like all I ever do is sin
Why do I feel like nothings changing
Why do I feel like everything's rearranging
Last 2 bars aren't the same listen to what I'm saying
Is the existence of life magic?
Or Is the existence of life tragic?

I'm torn apart please someone help
I'm falling apart please somebody help
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me
I'm torn by the scars I gave someone else