4ttics - nobody likes you when you're 23 even though i'm 24 Lyrics

So confused at 23 why I feel the need to drink
When my family bought it for me at 13
Thought it better that I did it under their supervision
I fill water bottles up with vodka crying in the kitchen
Every day another mission, another pointless shit to get
Know he probably should be fostered, may be better off dead
Can't even tell if I'm just lazy or depressed
Think I know my worth one minute then the next I'm worthless
I'm fiscally retarded, made my long distance girlfriend wait regardless
If the rent is paid or tank is full
I'm full of shit for thinking that I'm stable
Capable of love or deserving of it
Wonder why I even started in the first place
I got put on Zoloft now I cannot even masturbate
Tryna get it up like tryna make my music circulate
Relapsing on weed cuz what else can I even say
Homie got the bong with a glass bit that percolates
Then I wonder why I'm seeing triple vision crossfade
Pop another X and I can probably touch a light ray
Leave it in the past I'm trying to make it to the next day
Okay, we getting sober boys
Trying to stop my constant bitching but I'm pissed at life conditions
Long as I can make you happy, at least one of us is winning
My dream doesn't come equipped with a picket fence
All I want to do is speak my truth and roll a couple heads