5 Grand - Without God Lyrics

Lookin at the life that I live without God
F*ckin with a non believer left my heart scared
Did I even mention the void of missin my kids
Or the times that I thought man I wanna kill this bitch
Shit these days man I gotta short fuse
Say the wrong thing leave ya breathing from tube
And that ain't cool but what I'm posed to do
Lotta built up aggression and I only give em truth
Deep depression I was in dark space
Ball is ya Court & this ain't the Barclays
Suicidal thoughts I'm having em all day
The ceilings caving this is more than a hard day
Look up the clouds ya see em they dark gray
Pay attention to the signs ya see em the taught me
Shot after shot spending nights at the bar
Trying to escape my own reality from a far
Litty out my mind even got into brawl
Throw a crazy right nigga hit Chinese bol
Word got in them streets and it almost start a war
But I attend to my beef put the Killahs on pause
Gotta turn down the heat thinkin how I get here
Rollin down the hill at max speed try and switch gears
Thinkin these niggaz loyal to me the shits rare
See the situation for what it is I'm prepared
Feel like He pulled rug from right beneath me
Gave me a slice humble pie to teach me
Took away everything that I loved in one swoop
Grab the bottle of vodka pour it I don't need the juice
Imma sip it straight heard em say ya need pain
It's a part ya growth build ya up from what ya came
Pressure is adding up now how do ya sustain
Always expect the unexpected that'll never change
Things gone wrong many thoughts brain
I was living legit but one foot up in the game
I said that I would quit but a nigga never did
I mean to feed these kids I would do it all again
Too busy on the strip took my eyes off the ball
Tryna find my way f*ck around and got lost
Brought me to my knees please forgive me for my sins
As I pray to God for the first time I need wins
Took a loss and it knock me off my square
Crawled up off the floor and im lookin for a chair
I don't talk much so I don't really share
When it's problems goin on imma keep it right there
That's the worse way to be watch what you say to me
Maintain focus as I try to get from A to B
Played the bottom long enough and I'm waitin patiently
God broke me down now build up cmon pray wit me