Rosebud Video (MV)

Am I enough now?
Those feelings I have lost, the joys of my past
They were my gateway drug, I've found the way at last
A born again goal setter
Ripped-as-f*ck go-getter
Every day, in every way, I'm so f*cking better
I do that positive thinking thing
But the voices just won't be quiet
I ramble about existential dread
But oh shit, I'm just on the wrong diet
Serotonin levels are dipping too low
That must surely mean I'm still not grateful enough
Gonna look at myself in the mirror
Be merry and smile
My ego is just a lie
But now I'll be able to break free
Live in the moment, breathe deeply, you can be
The very best version of yourself if you take this program
Law of attraction, I must want it enough
Manifest my best self 'cause I'm #soblessed
The lack of self esteem defines my whole existence
I'll buy my happiness inmerely five installments
Acai-flavored bullshit
Puts your fears to rest
A dopamine kick that will last
Life coaches and exit bags
Sit by hearth of my lost days
Hiding from my pain
Washing my hands doesn't get rid of this stain
Obsessive thoughts, all hope is lost
But from these ashes
I will rise anew!
I get shit done
I'm f*cking number one
I manage the time of my misery by the minute
A passive income in delusion
Magic pills, mind-body fusion
Fish oil, brain boosters, black bile
Another fascists with a smile
My life is just a checklist of goals keeping the fear of death at bay
If I distract myself enough I won't wonder if this shit's worth the pain
The stuff that's meant to make me better is just f*cking me up
I will recite my affirmations while I plunge in the dark
Finally I am free
The weight of my life is just mine to carry
Tell me, God, am I enough now?