999 zombie - Zombie Lyrics

Is this really you? Or just a cover outside
To hide what you really are on the inside
But why'd you do that?
Cause you got a nasty side huh?
Look around you fool you're no different hah!
How many times you lied?
How many times you cried?
How many nights have gone stressing bout your future wanting good life?
You call yourself a Zombie while looking alive
Breathing fine with a smile but dead inside
Ay nobody knows what you've been through
The roads you had to take and didn't get to choose
Left alone in a world of wondering who
These people are that are gonna take care of you
Nobody knows your pain
Nobody understands you
They take what they wanna take and then leave you
It's a cruel world kid, gotta warn you Selfish and rotten
That's my point of view
I stress a lot bout my future every now and then
What type of person would I grow up to be in the end
Would I be nice or bad?
Would I be the kind that makes people laugh or the type of person to make people mad?
Would I chase for things that I never had?
Would I be this? Or
Would I be that?
Overthinking for real, panic attack
Leading to sleepless nights, insomnia

Everyday
I wake up feeling shit
I say to myself better days are coming innit?
Putting my shoes on I hit the road
Laughing my ass off, my life isn't my own
Someone's controlling
Writing my fate
God or Satan I do-n't wanna debate
I see all of these people involved in this world full of controversies openly spreading hate
Judgemental eyes focusing me
Behind my back, they bitching me
Nobody's real these days, no heart is clean
Cheating and faking emotions, why do that shit?
I don't wanna do this
I don't wanna hate him
I don't wanna hate her
I don't wanna fit in
I just wanna keep living
And keep living in peace
Fulfill my dreams and be happy from within

This is not the life that I wanted
I never chose it to be this way
All of my decisions so far must have been nothing but a mistake
Heaven or hell, where is my place?
Where do I belong? It is getting me depressed
But I won't give up until the end
Will keep pushing and pushing outta my every single last breath
This is the way, the one and only way
Cause
Better days are coming sooner or later someday