A Karmic Gray - Ash Friday Lyrics

Someone put an end to this nightmare
Someone don't let me fall asleep
Cause everytime I see you
I'll know
I get haunted by the ghosts of familiarity

I don't want to wake up to find
We were victims of too much time past
And I can't align
I don't wanna up to find
I missed the bus on the way to the finish line
I don't wanna wake up like this
I don't wanna feel emptiness
I just wanna know that maybe there's a bitter hope
Beyond the sights
That I'm seeing in the dismal gray skies
I don't wanna look like I lost everything cause

Maybe the nice guy will always come up short handed
Maybe the real ones don't always get pained
In the chest like that
Angel just cheering for a scrap of something
I don't wanna wake up losing everything
Maybe I can hope for my something wrong
Maybe I won't get there before they close door
Maybe I'm not locked out after all

Or maybe I'm just full of shit
Maybe I'm just full of shit
I'm feeling full of it
Feeling full of it
But take me away
Because of it
Before I start to self destruct
And blow my own mind
With thoughts of suicide
It's going to be a hard one tonight
It's going to be a hard one tonight
It's going to be a hard one tonight

I'm reckoning with my own delusions
Coming to an unwinnable
Spider web
I've weaved
I've f*cked up with demons cause
It's either got a gun or I'm too late
Or I'm just brain matter
But nothing ever mattered in my f*cked up brain
Bring on the crimson rain at the split wrist
A slit list
Or spliff smoked to a slit wrist
I just swerved my wounds into no one
So I put on thoughts of you
And never seem to stop plaguing me
I'm waking up to find a goddamn misery
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