Stress Video (MV)

My grandpa died, a week later my house got flooded
My parents were tryna find building a new house in the budget

My grandpa died, I think he would be disappointed
In the one that was anointed
I know this ain't what he wanted for me

Lord forgive me, too many times I been messing up
I don't tell my mom the half
I know she been stressed enough
Never lost her faith in God
He been steady blessing us
Hard to keep in mind through the hard times He's only testing us
At night I pray to God
Hope he never left my soul
Every person that I ever wanted always left a hole
Filled it with this music so I try my best to use it
For something that's really useful who are you to say I'm useless

Fantasies of making records with Billie
Fantasies of giving mama a milli
I tell my friends that I'm just living but really
I'm dying to be a rapper not trying to be an actor
My school life is in the crapper now I'm working
Working towards being a better person or at least a better version
Version where I ain't thinking of food until after service
Version where the only place I feel weird is at the circus
Version where I don't see Cyrilla and start actin nervous
Version where me and Bre are not enemies at the surface
Chances are we'll never speak again but still you never know
Chances are I'll talk more about it I'm bad at letting go
I've learned that people change, feelings tend to rearrange
Terrified at graduation knowing things won't be the same
Telling them sooner or later I'll be the man
But there's no sense in going in without a plan
Something gotta change
Tired of wishing and hoping
I've been banging on these doors
One of them gotta open
I've been dropping all these songs
One of them gotta soak in
Caught in a spell, but don't remember chugging the potion
Where's the antidote
The future had me all in a panic yo
Self-esteem was so low that I could see the titanic yo
When I talk proper, they say no way but he's melanic though
Hard to keep the crown when you don't have it so I gotta have it

I don't wanna be alone

Why, why does life
Why does life have to be a phase
Why, Why can't it just be, all
Like I know there's gon be trials and stuff
You don't have to just
You be on top and then just
Ppssshhh
Gone
Man my whole outlook on it was like
You gon go through stuff
And unless you get through it just determines on you know,
Your strength, and will, and
Your faith in God
And all thats stuff
Because you gon be tested
That's just gon happen