Wake up everyday
Feeling like I wanna rage
Something ain't right inside of me it's all in my brain
Surrounded by toxicity
So I'm living quietly
Always out of sight
I exist far from the light
And I really wanted to kill myself
But I realized pain isn't worth death
I would rather suffer and still hold my freedom
So from that day I look forward to the demon
Everyday that wake up I can't tell the difference
Between what's real and what's not I'm so distant
From this planet even though I live on it
I feel like a guest in my head I'm new to everything
This is like abyss
I'm dying in inside I'm not living like this
And you think that I'm fine but I'm drowning in my own piss
I cannot find any words to explain this
All my life I grew up knowing that I'm nothing special
Wanna burn away my presence
So that nobody can feel me
I feel like ice heart is freezing
Brain is so numb
I feel so dumb
Retarded
Living in a haunted
House everything talks to me in a language that I don't even understand
Physically here but mentally in another land
I'm gone