Midnight still awake
Sweat drops on my face
Nervous wreck
Insane
Peeling off my own skin
Intrusive thoughts in my brain
Can't fall asleep like I'm on a train
Stuck in between living in reality and losing touch with everything
Mentally deaf
Nails in my head
Preference to bleed to death
I slit my wrists
And jump off a damn bridge
Why should I live
If everything makes me sick
Living my life in silence without bliss
Now I'm staring at the ceiling tryna hibernate
Devil at my window sill trying to manipulate
My broken mind frame into making me end it all
But if I do then I won't make it to heaven's gate
And I don't know if I will be able to change
'Cause I've been close to my habits and it's hard to get away
We think there's time to change but tomorrow isn't for sure
We all want relief but no permanent cure