Don't try to text me and tell me you're proud of me
'Cause you never believed in me you doubted me
Laugh at my face yeah I know that it's funny
The fact that I don't even make any money
But trust that doesn't matter
I don't do it for the money I had
Enough of you fakes no no I don't trust you
Don't try be around me I don't like you
I can see right through you
You're full of shit and it's leaking
I hope that you die now
'Cause you're always trying to bring me down
Life has got me thinking about what death is like
I don't wanna die but I do sometimes
Suicidal thoughts rot inside my head
And I'm trying to be happy but I'm feeling so dead
Your presence is toxic
'Cause it makes me nauseous
I'm perfectly sane but you say that I have lost it
Maybe that is because of
Me always being honest
I don't live in the darkness but it just lives all around me
I feel like the world was never meant for me
Feeling so anguish people ignore me
I feel like a ghost that nobody can ever see
Living in the sunlight but darkness is all I see
My life has gotten the best of me
Tortured and traumatized mentally
I see that God has been testing me
And I know that soon enough I'm gonna be able to breathe
Always don't how to speak 'Cause I'm in an awkward state
Feel like I wanna die when I lose my faith
Living in the past with all memories of pain
And I try to get rid of them but they're stuck in my brain
I can't control my emotions
I think I'm losing composure
I'm so dizzy I might vomit
Falling apart like the leaves in August
Your presence is toxic
'Cause it makes me nauseous
I'm perfectly sane but you say that I have lost it
Maybe that is because of
Me always being honest
I don't live in the darkness but it just lives all around me