the afterhour. - Pushover Lyrics

I'm against myself and I can't stand it
How the hell did I just let myself down, again
I bend till I break, ain't too much I can take
Guess I'll do my best to not make a sound
So I can stop to catch my breath
Cause I just can't get out of my head
And I don't really know who I am
Just let me stop to catch my breath
Then maybe I'll understand
That I don't really know who I am
Other than, I'm pushover
There's just something that I gotta know
Why the hell can't I just feel at home
And I can't contemplate it
Can't get used to it
So I try and try to take it slow
Take it slow, oh
Why can't I just take it slow
So I can stop to catch my breath
Cause I just can't get out of my head
And I don't really know who I am
Just let me stop to catch my breath
Then maybe I'll understand
That I don't really know who I am
I'm never gonna know who I am
Other than...
I'm trying not to lose my head
But I just can't get out of bed
I'm trying to catch my breath
Maybe I'll never know who I am
I'm trying not to lose my head
(Tryin not to lose my head tonight)
But I just can't get out of my bed
(But I just can't get it right)
Cause I've been tryin to catch,
Tryin to catch my breath
Maybe I'll never know who I am
Yeah, I've been tryin to catch,
Tryin to catch my breath
I just can't work it out
So I can stop to catch my breath
Then maybe I'll understand
That I don't really know who I am
Other than, i'm a pushover.