Aillusion - Ignorant to Happy Lyrics

How
Can it be
You were there for a moment
Through death, I lost my sanity
We both thought it was forever
But how
Can it be
I let fear take over
I lost my family
Now fear is all I see
You know me, I can't stay in one place
But it's true, you know
She's better off without me
I can see it, see it in her face
I don't want to admit it
It's hard to embrace
It's love I'm looking for
As I chase a chemical
That just leaves me wanting more
Wanting more (SCREAMING)
Wanting more(SCREAMING)
As long as I'm not myself
I think I'll be safe
But fear is an illusion
An illusion I create
An illusion I create(SCREAMING)
And is there a difference
Between love and loneliness
Truth is
I'm an emotional masochist
As long as I'm not myself
I think I'll be safe
But fear is an illusion
An illusion I create
But how
Can it be
We both thought it was forever
I let fear take over
I lost my family
Now fear is all I see
As long as I'm not myself
I think I'll be safe
Because fear is an illusion
An illusion I create
An illusion I create