INSECURE (Remastered) Video (MV)

Alright, I wasn't supposed to make something like this for a while but
Alright
Head down, you can tell he's alone
Stuck in his room, crying, gun to the dome
Trying his whole life, moving pebbles to stone
Wishing he wasn't alive, wishing he was a clone
Trying to survive, watching his tone
Trying to get food, like a dog in his bone
Can't seem to find the right move, can't seem to find the right zone
Sleeping outside, wondering why I'm all alone
Look to the sky, wondering where's my home
If I should die, I don't want to be alone
My whole life, I've been on my own
It goes from comforts, to introverts, and all die first
When gettin, you don't know your worth, it's like my curse
No one cares when I feel so hurt
I dug my own grave, I dug my own dirt
Pray one day that I'll be unearthed
They say lock it away and self-preserve
Am I striking a chord? No, you're striking a nerve
But enough is enough, it's been so much
Will I ever get real love? Not much
I've been trying to climb out of this rut, but I can't get up
Everyone around saying I should just give up
But I can't live up to these expectations
And they keep throwing doubt onto my name
And I keep on wasting all of my time
That's what they keep on saying as they're passing me by
Is it real? My life is a lie, I'm ready to die
Blade to my neck, slice down on my thigh
Mother, brother, and father keep wondering why
Depression isn't real, it's just a state of mind
If it isn't real, then why am I wanting to die
If it isn't real, then what am I feeling deep inside
What are these voices in my head telling me to die every night
I'm sitting in my room and I'm wondering why
When I'm sitting in the dark, who can I confide
I promise I will not lie, this time I tried
I gave you everything I had and set myself aside
I didn't want you to know what it's like to see my selfish side
It can be kinda dark and awfully timid at times
I try not to let it spark when my anger starts to arise
It's been getting really hard when I'm alone in mind
They keep saying one day it'll get better, just give it time
Just keep pushing forward, you'll be just fine
Now I'm sitting in my room wishing for it all to just rewind
As kids we always wished to get older
Now we all want to be kids again