Alcatrav - Back to the Bottle Lyrics

I went back to the bottle, I swore id never go back again
Drink it straight to the bottom, Ive been racing round the track tryna find the end
I went back to the bottle. I swore id never go back again
You can tell by the wobble, I put up these walls and they're cavin in

I'm an addict, falling back on crutches cause they lift me up
End the shift, crack a bottle, never hits me quick enough
The liquor hits my lips n i get a buzz
But I wake up every morning on my floor and I can't get up
Splash a bit of water on my face
Then get so f*ckin high that i fly through outer space
Can't make it through the day because I crave the taste
You can find me sipping whiskey while i'm on my break
And now I've realized, its what pushed you away
But if you never really want it, you will never make the change
I've been rewriting my lines, takin lines to the brain
And my drive in the paint has come alive in the pain
Crushing every goal I said that I was gonna chase
Got a bottle of patron and I'm drinking it straight
Just like I'm Merkules, always puffin on these purple trees
And every line i spit burns to the third degree

I went back to the bottle, I swore id never go back again
Drink it straight to the bottom, Ive been racing round the track tryna find the end
I went back to the bottle. I swore id never go back again
You can tell by the wobble, I put up these walls and they're cavin in

I've been takin one step forward, and two steps back again
I got the jack and gin sip it straight to fuel the pad n pen
My mind is a cesspool. Tell these people in my life
I've given up. Trying to impress you
Now I'm takin strides on this leap of faith
Owning every mistake, danced with the devil then she sent me on my way
Keep your pennies, I don't care what you say
I got a bottle of Henny staring me square in the face
And the devil on my shoulder said that weed would ease the pain
But i swear that drugs have pushed everything i love away
And I, don't recognize the face in my reflection
Get the gps, I dont know where my life is headed
I've been battling depression and just going through motions
I feel like jack on the titanic when it sunk into the ocean
Now I'm slowly hope on the message in a bottle
But maybe it's in this one, let me drink it to the bottom

I went back to the bottle, I swore id never go back again
Drink it straight to the bottom, Ive been racing round the track tryna find the end
I went back to the bottle. I swore id never go back again
You can tell by the wobble, I put up these walls and they're cavin in

Sailor Jerry, Captian Morgan, and Dr. McGillicuddy
Grabbing anything in the liquor cabinet to fill my tummy
Like venom in my veins, it just brought me pain
I could feel the bottle slowly taking things away
But I went back to it, I was that stupid
I know people who have lost their mums and dads to it
And I've been staring in the mirror at myself
But the hardest thing to do is admit that you need help