Alcatrav - Broken Lyrics

I'm my biggest hypocrite, cutting every verse down
But I'm my biggest fan too cause every verse I spit proud
Knowing that every word is true to who I really am
Since back in the day singing songs in moms minivan

I knew I had it, that f*ckin talent
But if it wasn't in my reach I wouldn't even try to grab it
And looking back i wish i wasn't so lazy
Looking in the mirror now wishing I wasn't going crazy

I've lost my mind like i'm losing inspiration
Work my knuckles to the bone for a f*cking corporation
By the time that I get home I've got no energy saved
By the time my bills are paid there's no food on plate

Push all my friends away just to get a sec of silence
Cause these demons in my head are steady racking up the mileage
I know in life that I'm the pilot
But i feel like its a Kong movie and I'm up against a giant

I've gotta be real with myself
I don't feel okay
I don't feel like myself
I feel like I'm broken
I don't feel like myself
I don't feel okay
And this is my scream for help
I feel like I'm broken

In school i was the cool kid, Talking loud and acting foolish
Around the town a name that everybody knew
And on the field I was a one man wrecking crew
Part the waves like Moses, Made a path and then I led them through

I gave up at the first sign of injury
Life threw the left and rights, I just let em hit me
Life got rocky like my whiskey and I didn't wanna climb out
Final minute forcing for a score with no time-outs

I remember I was the centre of attention
Now I'm hiding in my house avoiding phone calls, yo f*ck depression
Passion? i got nothing left, but ill never give in
We've been losing people daily so for them I keep on living

Life's full of second chances, I'm just second guessing
Like if i changed my life around would It be better?
Would I see clear? Or would I keep stressing?
Lately i've been looking to the heavens for a message

I've gotta be real with myself
I don't feel okay
I don't feel like myself
I feel like I'm broken
I don't feel like myself
I don't feel okay
And this is my scream for help
I feel like I'm broken