Vaccinated Video (MV)

I've got a lot of growing
To fix the way I am
And truly if I'm honest
I don't really doubt it that I can

But often when I'm lonely
Or sad
Or somewhere in between

I think I kinda like it
To feel inspired
And somehow less diseased

It's almost like a vaccination
And I don't wanna get the cure
But maybe just a bit of poison
To know that I was pure

I've had a lot of evil in my life
For someone relatively good
And it's a statement of our world
I guess

Aware of things around me
But I chose to turn my head
When things look rough
Because I'm happy not to see them come around

My music acts like therapy
Alone I learn too much for me
To really wanna feel this way I guess

Instead of being strong
I take the easy path and feel the fire and
Let it drag me under past my head

I'm not sick of feeling like I'm crazy
I've grown used to feeling like I'm numb
Watch is moving faster every second
Time will fix the patches and the holes

I just wanna make myself look higher
I just wanna grant myself some goals
Opportunities I feel like pass me
I'm so scared to end up alone

I'm not sick of feeling this way
It's almost like a vaccination
And I don't wanna get the cure
But maybe just a bit of poison
To remind myself that one time I was pure

I'm not sick of feeling this way
It's almost like a vaccination
I don't wanna get the cure
But maybe just a bit of poison
To remind myself that one time
I was pure

I don't wanna do this anymore