Allen Thomas - Mom Song Lyrics

You asked me, can I talk
Right now, but I don't want to
I can't give any time for your drama
I don't want to hear it
There's nothing left to say
This is why I stay
So far away from you
Some days I wish you cared
More than you really show
Perhaps I feel at times
That love's a silly joke
Pretend to be complete
When inside I'm really broke
How can this feeling be described?
It's killing me slow
This is from your oldest
But I'm not the first born
Stuck in a moment of where the hurt scorned
Deeper than a needle
Now I'm bleeding with my shirt torn
On this rollercoaster of emotion in the worst form
Bandaids show the world what I'm concealing
Trust the process?
I just want to stop the hurt that I'm feeling
Years spent in church
God, I know You work in healing
Tell me
What will it take for me to earn this healing?
I can't deal with this everyday
It's like you don't hear me anyways
If this the last thing you hear me say
I'm trying to forgive
But every time my phone rings
You asked me, can I talk
Right now, but I don't want to
I can't give any time for your drama
I don't want to hear it
There's nothing left to say
This is why I stay
So far away from you
I don't know what I did
Always seems to get you mad
Didn't ask to be born
Trying to live with the fact
On my birthday
You said that you regretted the birth pain
Wished you never had me
Promise that was the worst pain
I'd have to be intact
First to say that I was shattered
Starting to add up
Thinking no wonder I never mattered
They say don't talk on it
It will cause grief
So I should walk around the subject
Wet concrete
Instead I'm jumping in full force
Now what I'm dishing out is full course
If I could I would cut these ties apart
That are wrapped around this dying heart
But all I got is a dull sword
I can't deal with this everyday
It's like you don't hear me anyways
If this the last thing you hear me say
I'm trying to forgive
But every time my phone rings
You asked me, can I talk
Right now, but I don't want to
I can't give any time for your drama
I don't want to hear it
There's nothing left to say
This is why I stay
So far away from you
There is no more talking
All we do is scream and shout
Like every single time we talk
You still want to speak in doubt
This is why I can't sit still
And I'm always leaving out
Off of this planet
Away from all these evil thoughts
The fights stay constant like a leaky faucet
Where were you when I needed you to be more than a single mom?
Trying to wrap my head around the fact I'm a believer now
Cuz I really want to live my life just like Jesus walked
So why do I insist and keep pressing answer?
When the stress is death like a cancer
Conversations in so many circles just go backwards
Now I realize that this is just a hazard ah!
I can't deal with this everyday
It's like you don't hear me anyways
If this the last thing you hear me say
I'm trying to forgive
But every time my phone rings