Allen Thomas - The Only One (feat. Dillon Chase) Lyrics

There was links I was clicking
Adrenaline rush at it's peak through my fingertips
I got so deep, used to browse in public, did I mention?
There was such a hunger and thirst that couldn't be quenched if questioned
Snapping mental images 'til I soaked up enough
Early riser I would fall every morning before I got up
Man I'm talking 'bout shame upon my head
Stains upon the bed ain't nothin' you could say, that's how I thought I was made as a Man
Imagine seeing your child stripped of all innocence
Found the stash underneath bath towels, no coincidence
Age twelve, magazine's depicted explicit pictures
Whether I said it, I thought it, I did it I did it!
Used to get my fix often and never spoke much
Couldn't connect with females it was so rough
Thought she was my wife, but it was just one night, there was no love
And still this emptiness remains feels like I'm the only one
Nights burning hot and days so cold
Fighting urges off, don't want to feel this pain no more
Cuz I'm searching, not sure which way to go
Tired of lurking in the dark and I feel so alone
If only I knew what I'd be going through
Before I chose to move, what am I gonna do (am I the only one?)
In the blink of an eye I'm fighting these demons inside with no peace of mind
Feelin chopped from all sides like a piece of a pizza I'm sliced
Now I can say I felt the fire
Watching them triple X shows I'm exposed now that's my title
Folks don't remember nothing good 'bout me
In this pursuit towards redemption I see that some would doubt me
But, but I'm not focused on what the world will say
I know I need to change my life don't wanna live in this world the same way
So concerning my wrong if I was to issue a statement
I would say I'm seeking help now and what I did to you I hate it
Need to make right what isn't since the stories been written
Gotta move forward with my life please wait just listen
Understand I made a mistake and I need to make a difference
Was once ashamed, but no longer a slave to my addiction
I'm finally free, but still in need of your forgiveness
To reconcile with those I'm hurting apology submitted
Nights burning hot and days so cold
Fighting urges off don't want to feel this pain no more
Cuz I'm searching, not sure which way to go
Tired of lurking in the dark and I feel so alone
If only I knew what I'd be going through
Before I chose to move, what am I gonna do (am I the only one?)
Don't twist what I said, don't get misled stay your head on His word, get fed
If it wasn't for His grace we should all be dead
Everybody make mistakes praise God, He bled
You in that dirt, you in that dark you ain't tryin' to see that light
You fall head first, but still at heart don't have no peace at night
Yeah yeah yeah Jesus Christ, okay, I say that name
Cuz He's the one that we can come to, to take our stains
It ain't my aim to excuse the grace we abuse face that shame
But look deeper and find forgiveness from those games you played
The devil is gonna accuse you
Your flesh is gonna abuse you
The spirit within convicts us of sin but then He's gonna renew you
Woooh, grace grounds us so humility will surround us
And none of us deserve to hear the one who wrote His Word and receive the love that Found us
So mount up and get rite back
Time to fight shine light at
Every lie the devil's disguise we ready to ride and fight that
Recite facts we standin' in Christ the Lamb who gave life despite acts
From the damaging type and He handed His life paid a scandalous price for my past, Ugh!
Step by step it's a process
And day to day we strive for progress
So get back up if you fall, do not quit
Place your trust in Christ and hold onto His promise
So now that you know there's a love for your soul
You are not alone, you are not alone
It's hard being scorned when your hearts bleeding torn
But regardless of the storm I will place my trust in the Lord
And put God over porn, put God over porn
It's hard being scorned when your hearts bleeding torn
But regardless of the storm I will place my trust in the Lord
And put God over porn, put God over porn