alli h - i think i might deserve it Lyrics

Sex and violence
I don't know any difference
You ostracize me
And I apologize profusely
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
And every time I start bleeding
I just wanna go deeper
And every time that you bruise me
I just feel like a martyr
And when I feel used
I never know how to tell you
Cause you know that I've been abused
And you know that I would never blame you
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
White lines and packs of booze
No one can hurt me like you do
Convince myself I'm letting you
What else is there to point to?
And I can blame it on the drugs
Or my childhood or blood
But the truth is harder managing
I can't feel love unless it's damaging
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
I think I might deserve it
That's why it's always worth it
Am I selfish or selfless?
Or inevitably helpless?
Somehow my thoughts all contradict
I'd sell my soul for the hell of it
If it wasn't you it'd be someone else
When it wasn't you it was someone else
There will always be an angry man in my house
There will always be an angry man in my house
When it wasn't you it was someone else
If it wasn't you it'd be someone else
It's just what I do I hate myself
It's just what I do I hate myself
Faithfully
No one to blame but me
Faithfully
Give you everything you'll ever need
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it
I think I might deserve it