Alligator Heartburn - as in a mirror, dimly Lyrics

Kat, I dreamed over and over
He was alive and he was in my house
He'd been alive this whole time
He just didn't tell us
Now he was living with my family
But he still wouldn't talk to me
And I never could find him
Because he never wanted me to find him
And I wanted so badly to go on a walk with him
I wanted to text him but I couldn't find my phone
All I could find were my mother and my brother
Wanting to fight about how distant I'd become
But I couldn't stay there, I had to take the stairway
To landings filled in warm, golden glares
I'd seen him just that morning rounding the corner
He was somewhere in that sun-setting house
I woke to find myself whispering
Whispering under my breath
It's not true
It's not true
It's not true
It's not true