Almost Jack - Loose Ends Lyrics

Really?
I had a six guns with six shots from the gun shop
That I stole to get rid of the monsters my monsters in my backyard
And I wouldn't be here now if I had not shot the gun
I was so f*cked, still have scars, my life sucked
Was torn apart, evetytime drunk, in a blue funk
More than once I warned you, I told you
I've never been so serious, so dangerous
I sought you, I found you
Shyness of my youth
Raised at school healed with booze
You said "don't shoot" I said "boom"
Finally I killed you
A slave of my kindness, people took it for granted
I hate this, I hate that I got killed by myself
But I was sick of my own grave
And I shot again to stay unbound
The kindness took my place
About six feet underground
Lightheartedness I found
In a dirty awful hideout, lights out,
No sounds, a ghost town, I ain't proud
Don't ask 'bout my mercy, my mercy was sold out
So I kicked the door down
I shot once, it bled out

I missed a lot of things that
I should have known
Before bang bang I wasted
All my shots but
Like monkeys with bananas
They want their TV dramas
They took their drugs drinkin' a
Flat warm diet coke

I spilled blood for three times
I thought it was enough
But something in the distance
Was shouting in the dark
I thought that I had finished and then
I wasn't done
We die a little everyday
But live only once
No tears no deal
There's no turning back
I wanna make myself clear
I did it with my hands
No good no bad
I leave no loose ends

I missed a loto f things that
I should have known
Before Bang Bang I wasted
All my shots but
Like monkeys with bananas
They want their TV dramas
They took their drugs drinkin' a
Flat warm diet coke

I went straight downstairs
Guess what I found there
My darling sanity
Was tryin' to protect me
Begging me to spare it
But I've made my choice
And i'm still paying the price
'Cause I pulled the trigger twice
They were all there
Lyin' on a blood pool but
Asking for revenge
I had never met regret when
It came and replaced them
I shot it too but
I missed it damn
That was my last chance
And sometimes I think
That maybe
Maybe I'd better kill myself