Amam - Killing Sandman Lyrics

Why
Oh why
Mr Sandman
Why did you betray us?
Why
Oh why
Mr Sandman
Your dreams don't replace trust

Look
I gotta blank word doc and a self-help book
They say buncha scary things and that's my home shell shook
Unless of course I'm basically dyslexic
I'm intermittent fasting man, I always skipping breakfast

From Iowa to Memphis
Tons and tons of free time, but I don't wanna spend it
Tons and tons of me time for me to be offended
By how much I am behind, guess I'll blame it on depression
Did I mention?

I gotta solid budget now
Solid for a college dropout tryna dumb it down
Solid for Bojangle's wages, see you judging now
Even with investments made I gotta toughen out

Yeah, look
Look it's a miracle, if you're hearing this
Had to manifest and operate a realistic fear assist
While maintaining a wide cast of personified appearances
Obnoxious friend, rebellious son, and sorta kinda lyricist

I could make a movie but I'd give up on the second script
I could write a book but all the pages I'd be sure to rip
I could paint a painting out of toothpaste what's the point of it?
I guess I'll make some music maybe this time I won't jump the ship

Yeah, jump the ship
And find out what an ocean is
Find out what it's like to live in this field were the most don't win
Gonna find out real fast why us humans don't have dorsal fins
Approaching all this wisely now by not saying "of course I'll win"

And I'm growin' out my finger nails, just like my fellow single males
Not black n' white like killer whales, not to the brim with filler tales
Wanna be the butterfly, but the caterpillar's frial
Livin' out my confort zone means chasin' after bigger fails

But then what I make isn't perfect
So if all I ever do is eat myself up is it really worth it
Don't Observe it, let me learn this
Later versions, still just burn it
I'd prefer it, If I never made my crappy art because you don't deserve it

Yeah, go on, laugh at me
Make fun like it's bad acne
'Cause if I get to play the victim I underdog this naturally, like
Is it that easy?
It's every rapper's fantasy
I feel like it's cliche to ask, but does anyone relate to me?

Fee fi fo fum
Building my life crumb by crumb
Mo ti va tion
Guess it's on vacation
Ser i ton nin
Wonder if I'm broken
Get. Up. Fricking. Work
If I don't then what's my worth?

I've got to kill the sandman
What's the point of all the dreams if I can never chase them?
I've got to kill the sandman
He gives me all these dreams but then he doesn't let me chase them

I've got to kill the sandman
What's the point of all the dreams if I can never chase them?

Oh, Mr Sandman
If only we were young again
If only we were young

If I'm not killing the sandman
The sandman's gonna kill me
He's gonna kill me