Amanda Gabriel - Honest Lyrics

This party is getting strange
I've started faking my way
Playing games I don't wanna play
I wonder, you seem alright
I'm spinning, here through the night
Waiting, will someone just figure me out
Cause the truth is that I'm never honest
Am I here to lie to myself
Don't make me try to be honest
I'll never admit what I felt
Maybe if I could finally talk to you
I'd say that I'm scared of falling
I get frustrated when I just hide the
Things that I needed to say
Oh what you say when you say how you're doing
Is that when I started to fade
Cause the truth is that I'm never honest
Am I here to lie to myself
Don't make me try to be honest
I'll never admit what I felt
Maybe if I could finally talk to you
I'd say that I'm scared of falling
Can't keep on thinking that I'm in control (get it ready)
Keeps getting easier losing it all (keep it steady)
Waking without me I'm blaming my fall (just keep fine)
On everything round me I make myself small (be the girl in line)
When I walk in don't believe what I got (what you know)
Waiting for you when it isn't your job (over what you know)
My bridges could shatter it isn't your lot (just keep blind)
Why does it matter, yeah I've had enough (and you're out your mind)
Truth is that I'm never honest
Am I here to lie to myself
Don't make me try to be honest
I'll never admit what I felt
Maybe if I could finally talk to you
I'd say that I'm scared