Why Do I Do That Video (MV)

Almost all the songs in my playlists make me wanna cry
And every movie I like someone dies
The TV shows the characters all lose their sense of hope
And it makes me feel at least I have a little more control
I turn it up just to feel sad
Kinda like feeling this bad
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Right now I'm not doing so great
I give advice that I don't take
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
If I find something feel happy it's too new and weird and scary
So I sabotage the ending like I did with you
Why do I do that, oh
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Yea there's something bout depression that makes me feel like I'm 15
And since I'm scared of growing up, I'll stay inside most of the week
Compare myself to Instagrams that look like they're a dream
Even though they edit them for hours I end up hating when I eat
Yea I turn it up just to feel sad
Kinda like feeling this bad
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Right now I'm not doing so great
I give advice that I don't take
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
If I find something feel happy it's too new and weird and scary
So I sabotage the ending like I did with you
Why do I do that, oh
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Yea I turn it up
Why do I like all these emotions
Have I even ever not felt like this
Have I ever not felt like this
Have I ever not felt like this
I turn it up just to feel sad
Kinda like feeling this bad
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Right now I'm not doing so great
I give advice that I don't take
But why do I do that
Why do I do that
If I find something feel happy it's too new and weird and scary
So I sabotage the ending like I did with you
Why do I do that, oh
Why do I do that
Why do I do that
Why do I do that