Nineteen Video (MV)

Everyday's the same kind of nightmare
I wake up, stand up, pretend I fit in
Making sure I'm kinda well centered
Fake smiles, change the subject, forget about me

But what if I said I'm getting tired of all of this?
This ain't what I planed for my life at twenty-something, I fear

What if I am wasted potential?
Cause I couldn't get rid of the pain
I just wish they could undertand it
Cause I'm trying the best that I can
I will try to make some amendments
Face the fears that I could't forget
I'm not even sure if I'll make it
But I hope I'll be fine at the end

How I wish I was 19 again

There's a kind reason I'm feeling
Like I have't been letting myself grow at all
I've been stuck In strange situations
Were I have been loosing control of my thoughts

I'm loosing my fate, I don't know if I'll ever be safe
Don't wanna take meds, I just want to be happy I guess

What if I am wasted potential?
Cause I couldn't get rid of the pain
I just wish they could undertand it
Cause I'm trying the best that I can
I will try to make some amendments
Face the fears that I could't forget
I'm not even sure if I'll make it
But I hope I'll be fine at the end

How I wish I was 19 again

I'll hold on to the best mistakes I've made
Then I'll learn to be happy again

What if I am wasted potential?
Cause I couldn't get rid of the pain
I just wish they could undertand it
Cause I'm trying the best that I can
I will try to make some amendments
Face the shit that I could't forget
I'm not even sure if I'll make it
But I think I'll be fine at the end

I will learn how to work on myself
Be as happy and proud as I can
Maybe 19 was just one step
In my 30's I'll be far away
Maybe 24 is what it takes