I've had too much here to drink
That I can barely just think
I'm trying to stay here afloat but I'm f*cking scared that I'll sink
I'm drinking just by the hour and looking back at our pics
Drunk as a bitch
Blacking out with a f*cking bottle of whisk
Questioning how in the f*ck did this get as bad as it is?
All I remember was the summer at the beach with our trip
Then two months later I get filed for harassment and shit
Now I'm in court, three year ban, it feels like man, is this it?
'Cause I didn't expect this shit to get all bad in some ways
From that PFA to the f*cking judge won't give me no say
To being falsely accused of abusing her in a way
How could I touch her if I loved her?
You all think I'm insane
But shit, you barely know the facts but I'm just trying to convince
'Cause people hate me to death over things that I never did
But if I violate the papers 'cause of this music and shit
Then f*ck it, I'll go to jail
But I won't fail to know that it's just for the better
It's just for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy
It's just for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy
Flashback to twenty fifteen
That was the year that we meet
Some socially awkward kid seem to met the girl of dreams
It was so hard to believe
Took you to semi that week
Still can't remember if that dress you wore was a blue or a green
Of course we would disagree
We were just both young in our teens
Then Christmas Eve came around and fights would end us complete
I f*cked up more than it seemed
But shit, I didn't care if you leave
'Till you was with someone else, I get so mad I would freak
Those f*cking three months you was with him was way too hard to just see
You would just walk right in school and not even bother with me
I guess that's how it would be
You was as spiteful as me
But that's what made me love you the most 'cause I saw you in me
You see, it's hard to look back and know exactly what you need
Shit, were we meant to be?
At the time man, that's how it would seemed
How did I f*ck up this up this dream?
I should've blamed it on me
I guess I was just irresponsible to see
But I guess it's for the better
It's for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy
It's just for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy
I've broke unbearable lengths
Took down that terrible fence
When do I pair up the strength to get up and do this again?
I've been so fair in the end
But their no comparable trend
I take my bare knuckles and left a f*cking tear on my head
How could I do this again?
Now we are not even friends
I take the blame for half of it but you the reason I've been
So f*cking pissed off
If I list off every goddamn thing that you did
I wouldn't have songs to just vent
Probably have no career to begin
But look, as long as your happy I don't have any reason to be mad
I just got to find some way to get all this anger and hate off my back
So whether it's this song or Abuser or any future songs I rap
Just know that it's all for the fact
Of getting this shit off my ass
Few days ago I stumbled back on some letters that we would write in high school
I thought that was gone in the shredder
Man, those were simpler times
I miss those days in November but now it's over
I must move on and remember that it's only for the better
It's for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy
It's just for the better
There never was a forever
You need to learn to forget her
'Cause you've been driving your self crazy
It's never
Gonna be the same when you meant her
But you can't be an upsetter
'Cause you are driving your self crazy