Anval - Breaking Point Lyrics

I lost my home I lost my daughter
And soon I'll lose my brother
But first I lost myself
Whiskey breath shattered glass nowhere to go
Sarah says You're lost and walks out slow
Staisa's car seat's gone house feels cold
Now I'm stuck with my shame spiraling out of control
Told myself f*ck it they'll be back someday
But deep down I know they're walking away
Tried to drown guilt tried to drink 'til I'm numb
But the weight of regret has nowhere to run
Lease runs out nowhere left to stay
Call Johnny up say I'm losing my way
He says Pull up we'll figure it out
Didn't know that'd be my last way out
Falling fast can't turn around
Losing grip I can't be found
Fading echoes past is calling
Breaking point there's no more falling
Nights in that house feel cold feel wrong
Two broken souls barely holding on
Johnny got demons I got mine too
We don't talk much but we both f*cking knew
The night before we sit up late
Talking 'bout pain talking 'bout fate
I stay sober clear in my mind
Don't know by morning I'll be left behind
Wake up to screams heart drops to the floor
Run through the hall kick open his door
See my brother lying there still
Shake his shoulders but he stays so chill
Falling fast can't turn around
Losing grip I can't be found
Fading echoes past is calling
Breaking point there's no more falling
Stay sober through the wake through the funeral days
But the second it ends I cave to the pain
One drink two drinks hell what's it matter
If I'm already drowning might as well sink faster
A month in the bottle a ghost of myself
Don't care 'bout nothing don't ask for no help
Mom sees me slipping same look in her eyes
Like she already knows she's watching me die
Don't gotta say it her face is enough
Lost one son now she's losing another to the stuff
Pick up the phone Y'all got a bed
They say Be here by ten I say Mom... let's go ahead
One more round Nah not this time
No more drowning no more lies
I see her pain I can't let this slide
Time to face it time to try