Anxious Hands - Dissociate Lyrics

There's a distance between me and everyone I know
Afraid of getting close, too scared to be alone
Dissociate, I'm disconnected from myself
Pull the plug on all my senses
I don't want to feel anything else

My mind's a prison, solitary and confined
Anxiety won't let me leave, so I'm left here doing time
I've been begging for attention, crying to be left alone
Lost in my head again, this place is getting cold

No one likes being nineteen, broke and on your own
The days are getting shorter, and I'm losing hope
This isn't where I should be, bailed on all my plans this week
I just don't have the strength, God I feel like such a waste

On and on it goes, it's been so long
And then you're on, you're on your own
It won't stop, just let me go
Just let me go

I'm always in second place
Being criticized for every word I say
Is it just me, does anyone else feel the same?
Am I born to be alone? Or am I born to be free?

On and on it goes, it's been so long
And then you're on, you're on your own
It won't stop, just let me go
Just let me go

No matter the hand I've been dealt, I always try to see the bright side
But nowadays the sun seems so far away, dragged further down by every struggling motion

I've been cursed with a passion for something so insane
And I won't stop until I've made a change
I can feel my body screaming to get some help
Maybe someday I won't walk this world by myself