Apastron - Synapse Lyrics

It's not a flood of emotion
But a lack thereof
I can feel this sensation
Run through my blood
There are times when I wish to be alone
And no matter the state of my own mind
I've lost all control

I suffer and it's no ones fault
Not even my own
I've lost who I am
Never again to take hold

I'm lost within illusions of myself
Seeing beautiful self portraits of ones' self
A mirror looking beyond what eyes can see
Something has been living inside of me
Is it a god, devil, angel, heretic
I long to know
But the patterns slow
Then cease to exist
Cast back from the place I had been
I've awakened back to reality

As boundless as the sky appears
Void of any stars I move forward towards
A deity bound by the flesh of man
Awakened to me through the light

It's not a flood of emotion
But a lack thereof
I can feel this sensation
Run through my blood
There are times when I wish to be alone
And no matter the state of my own mind
I've lost all control

I'm doubting my reality again
I suffer internally I've lost who I am
Behind the lines we see
Behind smoke and mirrors
The disappearing scene
Of somebody we want the world to see
We want the world to see

It's not a flood of emotion
But a lack thereof
I can feel this sensation
Run through my blood
There are times when I wish to be alone
And no matter the state of my own mind
I've lost all control

Now I'm seeing red
My eyes roll back into my head
Every trace of who I am
Dissolved at the very core
There's no evidence
Not a single trace
And there's no saving me
I'm drifting further away
Into the hands of fate
And there's no saving me