[ Featuring EndorShores ]
Fighting against the clock
Fighting and it feels non stop
Praying and I pray I don't stop
Down bad, baby don't talk
I've been down
I've been up
I've been round
I've been stuck
Been here for a while
Way passed a 30 day trial
Thought I canceled subscription
Thought I said I wouldn't give in
I know who I'm trying to be
I know it ain't out of reach
Lucy clouding my vision
Why do I even listen
I don't turn on television
In my head, devil living
Why do I even listen
Change the channel, I'm begging
Want outside this transmission
In a hole yeah I'm slippin
Need a ladder to go up
God I pray that you show up
Maybe I need to grow up
I been needing to grow up
It's all in your time at the end of the day
I'd be lying if I said that I don't want change
Seasons go by and I've been rearranged
When I trip it makes me think, that I stayed the same
Little old me from back in the day
Driven by girls from 5th-8th grade
2012 came and everything changed
Felt the Holy Spirit, my heart rearranged
Didn't look at women, at all the same
So I stopped messing wit 'em, gave 'em a break
But my habits remain, addiction remained
Eyes glued to the screen, I thought I was good
Wasn't with her physically but I was foolin' myself
Thinking that I wasn't sinning I was fooling my health
Heart so empty had to cry out to God
These women online couldn't be my all
So much missing, had to give it to God
Got my life on track, but it didn't last long
Set free for a season, then I drop the ball
Cycle keeps going, like a 12 story mall
Up and down I go, wonder when will I fall
Every time that I'm down, it's on you I will call
May take some time, but you're really my all
I can't heal my flesh, on my own
Fighting against the clock
Fighting and it feels non stop
Praying and I pray I don't stop
Down bad, baby don't talk
I wanna change for my kids
I wanna change for my wife
I haven't met 'em yet
But at the end of the night
When I'm tempted and I fight
Gotta start to think twice
If I wanna be like Jesus Christ
Gotta eat up all the words
From my father up in heaven
He given me the bread
Why I have I not been eatin'
I wanna tend to the garden
Like way back in Eden
Satan using women for my downfall
God got a woman to fulfill my call
Working on myself is taking my all
Working on myself is taking my all
If they said it was easy they were lying
Fighting against the clock
Fighting and it feels non stop
Praying and I pray I don't stop
Down bad, baby don't talk
