Don't Wake Up Video (MV)

Wallowing when I spawn
I watch the scars on my arms add up
They're all just receipts for the regression
Hurts to confess I've progressed less than expected
My skeleton's been shredding from the depression
These sad moments, I lack waves of exceptions
To release every feeling that I have kept in
Steadily trembling, excess messy stepping
Don't be so vexed, I'm not tryna be interesting
Damage or be damaged, and I hate being the damager
Either way, pred or prey, I'll still be seen as animal
Being seen as a mystery never ever did shit for me
I know you ain't into me, you just represent infamy
That's why I put the pain in paintings
And every woman I know puts the maze in amazing
I'm not enough so I'm nodding off, drinking with Satan
Smoking spliffs till I'm brainless...it ain't shit
But I've only been growing older, I feel the mold on my soul
Lotta shit I don't condone still managed to take control
Oh it left me so broken, still tryna restore to whole
When I thought I finally did, I fell in another hole
That's how the cycle goes
Will it ever end? I guess we'll never know
No need to sit and pretend, just need to let it go
I keep from telling my friends because I'm dead alone
God was alone for an eternity, so I will never need no one to care for me
Heaven's gates these days are looking like a parody
I'm set to break free cause my demons split a chair with me
And watch me sink freely as the salt water buries me
No time to wonder if I'm scared or not
This salt seeping into my skin's a sensation I don't care to stop
So if I learn to swim while I'm sinking, I'll swim closer to the parallel paradox
So that I don't wake up
Don't wake up
Don't wake up
Don't wake up
Don't wake up
Don't you ask what I've been contemplating
You ain't ready for that conversation
Don't you ask what I've been contemplating
You ain't ready for that conversation
Don't you ask what I've been contemplating
You ain't ready for that conversation
Don't you ask what I've been contemplating
You ain't ready for that conversation