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I've been bottled up for a while now
Bit my tongue to tears
Bribing all the fun, I could finally drown
Like your sacred deer
Melted from the sun hand-to-moon, we howled
But never faced our fears
Untie the knot of us so I can smile out
All those little wasted years
No, I'm not satisfied
Until I'm shaking and terrified
By the flame I made eat at my brain
Every day just to fake and feign sane
I left the broken glass beneath the ashes
Lest I let the past tenets untested so
I promise to smile just for you
If you want me to be happy
I will be
Or even if you hate me
Hope you seethe
See the better part of this broken heart
I will smile just for you
And for me too