Arthur Bean - Ceilings Lyrics

My ceiling fell onto my bed that same day that we ended
I keep having this dream that we just laid there in the mess
I hate to think that you think I'm here breezing through repression
I haven't been back to the house to clean it ever since
Talk about resemblance, that day I caved into pressure
Didn't think I'd do it to you but she knows me more than me
I see her like the devil way she handles adaptation
Comes into my life knowing she's just about to leave
I'm looking to these drums for distraction,
People, I can't stand them
I don't understand how
They don't understand me
I'm too tired to have manners
My head down on piano
People in my space but I just cannot be distracted
Tell me is it me that I'm running from
Me that you could not stand
Me, the reason why you lost all your faith in men
Is it me, do I wanna know?
Why you turned icy cold
Just for the record no I never cheated
My ceiling fell onto my bed that same day that we ended
I keep having this dream that we just laid there in the mess
I hate to think that you think I'm here breezing through repression
I haven't been back to the house to clean it ever since
Talk about resemblance, that day I caved into pressure
Didn't think I'd do it to you but she knows me more than me
I see her like the devil way she handles adaptation
Comes into my life knowing she's just about to leave
She tried to change her name but it's not the way
No it still carries weight
You had to pick up all the pieces
And she tried to change her hair but they won't forget
Memories come excess
Life of a masochist
But who am I to judge
Cus I said I'd never see her face again
But now I'm in the chase
I blocked her number but ended up just one call away
I gave you up for free
Like how she did to me
Maybe me and her are more alike than I'd like
Free up on the weekend
See me on the weekend
How'd the f*ck I end up begging when I'm barely done with grieving
I should tell you we're not speaking
I do it with no feeling
I did it for our freedom
Went back there for a reason
Now I'm back in her trap again
Back in this ugly place
Back in her palm like the way she used to play me
Now I'm back,
Back in bed with fate
I made the flower wilt
I close my eyes I only see your crying face
(Now I'm back back back back back)
Tell me how I end up in this place
Tell me why I'm built this way
(Now I'm back back back back back)
Tell me why I've been so cold
So cold,
So cold
I'm here to apologise
In the name of love