As I Stand - I Shoulda Known Lyrics

You shoulda known
You shoulda known

You knew that I was insane
Just admit it, you could kinda tell
I know I told you I was depressed
And every day felt like a different hell
When my hands started shaking
I tried to figure out how to make it end
But then we started talking
And I found a friend

Now I know we weren't that close
And we drifted apart
But that day you talked me off the ledge
I still held close in my heart
I've got a kid now, man
With a real nice lady
We've been together for a while
I just thought she could change me

Well, shit got rough
I even held them hostage
But little did I know
How much it would cost me
It all adds up: the drugs, the past, the lifestyle
You knew I'd been strugglin' for a while

You shoulda known

You shoulda known
You shoulda known

You shoulda known

You shoulda known
You shoulda known

What could I have done
Was it my fault
I could have done something, man
I could have talked to you
I shoulda reached out
I miss you, man
You're my bother
You'll always be my brother
Oh, God
Oh, f*ck

I ended up in jail, man
How didn't you know
I know we never talked
But a true friend would know
If we would've kept in touch
It wouldn't have hurt so much
Maybe I could've used you as a crutch

Remember all the late nights
That we sorted the shit out
I was confident
That it was all over now
I'm so sorry, man
I couldn't do it anymore
I just needed you as a mentor

I shoulda known

I shoulda known
I shoulda known

I shoulda known

I shoulda known
I shoulda known

Man, I'm so glad to have gotten to know you
And I hope you found the peace that you were lookin' for
I love you, man
Rest easy brother
Rest easy