Attivsociety - Never a Me Lyrics

I loved you more than you can comprehend
But honestly I can't contend with him
He's richer than I'll ever be and your heart is something I can never keep under lock and key
And that's what bothered me
You used me as a place to go to get away from your broken home
And I guess I did too
We were stepping stone of sorts
And hurt each other like hell and showed no remorse
It's taken a long time for me to write you back
Cuz I guess I just couldn't come to terms with how I acted
We were going two different ways
Then you didn't look at me the same way
The us we were isn't the us I see today
Part of me wishes that you would
Part of me wishes that you wouldn't
I know what I wanna say but I know I shouldn't
But I guess you couldn't either
Don't even know why I even try to conversate
I already know that it's just too late
You took all the effort
Out of my fingers
And turned it to Ashes
It was all for you love
Pen and to paper
Confessing my temper
I guess there was never
A me and You
You never listen to the words I try to say
So whats the point of talking anyway
See I think it's stupid me believin' in you
Believin' in us
Ya see it's ironic
Every time I asked if you were cheating
You would always say
Don't you trust me
Don't you love me
How could you think of such a thing
Gosh I believed in you
But I don't know how you could see this through
To hell and back I would've followed you
For this love that I thought was true
But then to see him with you
I start to see through your ruse
That I was just somethin' for you to use and discard
Maybe that's why
I always tryin' harder
There was never a me
And honestly it hurts to think of how long I never knew
And it stings
And I guess when you searched up pictures of wedding rings
None of them were for me
You took all the effort
Out of my fingers
And turned it to Ashes
It was all for you love
Pen and to paper
Confessing my temper
I guess there was never
A me and You
But I guess in the end
The truth that I knew were only the lies that you'd bend
See there was never a me
And there was never a you
And there was never a us
And it hurts me like hell to know I'm telling the truth
But that's what I do
I lie to myself to try and not to fall apart
Cuz that's how I deal with my broken heart
I look back on the lines and the attempts seem pathetic
Empathetic to myself
I never cared about anyone else
I just made it for myself
Maybe that's why we never worked
All I ever cared about was getting what I thought I deserved
I was too focused on makin' verbs
To see through your empty promises and comments on his Insta pics
I just wanted you to make a choice
And well I guess that you did
But if I was still with you
Then I never would've met my wife
And I'm so glad I did
You took all the effort
Out of my fingers
And turned it to Ashes
It was all for you love
Pen and to paper
Confessing my temper
I guess there was never
A me and You