Atypical - schizo Lyrics

It's hard to, it's hard to explain. I'm gonna try to explain it though
It's hard to explain what you did to me and not sound like a bitch
I woke up hurting with no explanation, feeling sick as shit
I came to find out you were putting heroin inside my veins when I was sleeping
So when I woke up, I didn't move an inch
You could keep me in your bed and never let me leave the pin
Then you would cop drugs off my opp and smoke his gas while I was limp
I didn't know about the actions you were scheming to commit
And when I found out, I pretended to be sleeping, I played the trick
When I caught you with the needle in your arm, I threw a fit
Said ahh bitch, I f*cking knew it, pack your bags and f*cking dip
She started crying, saying sorry like the victim's what she is
It's so pathetic that I folded sealed my fate, giving a kiss
Then she held me like I needed it gave my consent and
Let her do it to me conscious, shared the needle with the bitch
Put it in her right after me said our blood is better mixed
I can't believe I let that shit go on for two years, ah shit
Alright, we broke up in 2021, I finally felt like I had freedom I didn't as a kid
I was 16 when we met and she was 18 with a kid
It wasn't hers, it was her boyfriend's she still fed and raised it
And she kissed me in front of my friend who wanted me to make her twitch
And now fast forward and my friend is dead and she's the reason that she is
I'll never speak on all the details. I'ma take it to my death
But all the memories and trauma I can't lose even though I wish
But I still feel like there's connection closure I ain't get
She mailed me back my hoodie and I haven't watched it since
I once talked to my therapist about her and he slipped
And said there's nothing I can do, I guess I'm only here to vent
So like my therapist, I lost a couple checks to seal a lip
Cause I don't want these people talking
They don't know the shit I live
But f*ck it, this my story, I ain't even hold the pen
And my ex her name was, Nah There's no point in giving her attention
I'ma just say what I need to then move on and take a hit
I put more fake shit in my blunt than a fake friend giving me tips
And I've cut more necks than Rick Grimes already in the apocalypse
And even while I'm speaking now you do not understand the depths
Of all the shit I went through just to be the person that I am
So I'll just summarize the story in a sentence that you'll get
Don't ever waste your time with bitches with prescriptions for their schizophrenia