atypical's grave - Outcome (Outro) (feat. atypical) Lyrics

Distant, can you see the difference, if not then please get close
Struggling to find myself since I look decomposed
I look into the mirror, I see pain, veins, blood and bones
No skin, no heart and no lungs, just a ghost in my reflection
I can't find the answer, so I ask a different question
I can't make my mind up, I just move shit like I'm 11
Ask me how I'm doing on a scale from 1 to 10, i'll lie and say that I'm a 7
But I'm probably a 1 or 2
Ain't been the same since I saw the girl I love's face on the f*cking news
Ain't been the same since I first cut myself and made my own wounds
And I only did it cause I felt control of the pain that I knew
Look around, so many hearts been broken and the love is not spoken
And love's a language, but hey baby just please don't come close
Cause it is killing me inside and out and I'm dead
But I can't figure out if life's awake or it's dreamt
Or will I wake up in a box, suffocating
Or will I be stuck in the darkness, gone and so damn vacant
Will I be an eternal memory that's f*cking wasted
Will I be in the ground for worms to come in and take and will I
Will I tell me what I'll be
It seems that everyone around you thinks they know more about me
It seems that people think they know your mind from shit that you speak
But they don't know inside your mind you hide and silence your screams
And now I'm an antisocial deviant, my heart f*cking sinks
But when I'm alone in my room I grab my mic and I sing
I write down poetry that rhymes so I begin and I read
And then I fit it on a beat and people think that it's neat
But f*ck it, this is my only emotion
Music is my diary
Therapeutic pleasures cause big label names to keep an eye on me
And now they wanna spy on me and make sure that I'm clean
But this whole project's about demons and the pain that I have seen
So I don't need it
F*ck the world, I'm gonna stay in the ground
An independent body son of satan shaking the ground
And honestly, they try to lie to my face
But in reality I tell them I wish I could die every day
So I could feel the same pain that I felt once
So I could make my own cuts, my own scars
And look at them and read my name
And see Ascension Parish every single day in the grave
Ascension Parish is a graveyard
Said to bury victims of suicide
A place in my head
A place where people would go to mourn the energy of those who couldn't be saved
And I remember writing the story of Ascension Parish in 2019
I was lost then, I didn't know where I was gonna end up
A depressed young me with no hope in the world
There was days where I just wanted to die
And now, fast forward, I'm living life
And yet I still feel like I succeeded
And I feel dead
And I don't have any emotion
And I look back on my past and think
Is this what I wanted
Is this really what I wanted
And I take no regrets from it
And I'm just scared of the fact that a young me wouldn't know how to handle my mindset
And myself
And how I live
I made this project to expose my demons
And my life for being so dark
And knowing that my mind isn't easy to get along with
It's hard to live my life knowing I will never be able to trust a soul
And I'll probably end up dying alone
I don't like the idea of being happy with someone else
And needing to rely on someone else's trust
And the reason I made this project is because I like the idea of being alone underground
Where no one can see me
No one can touch me
And talk to me
And only stand over me and look
And realize how much they really f*cking cared
Because only
It's the only time people f*cking care
When it's too late to tell you how they really feel
And people
Will
People in my life who are f*cking fake to me
Will see that I'm dead and go
Atypical Issue He was an artist
He used to be my friend
But the truth is I don't have f*cking friends
I have brothers. I have family
And that's f*cking it
The reason I'm saying all this is to open your mind
Who's really your friend and who's really just there
Because they gain more from being your friend than they gain from not knowing you at all
Ascension Parish is my happy place
Where's yours
What's it called
What's it's purpose
What is your purpose in it
Don't be afraid to create
Ascension Parish is my happy place
Because it's the last place I want to see anyone
Suicide is not the answer
And I hope you have the right-
The right people to pull you out of your darkness
I am here for you
And I love you all
At the beginning of this album you were told I was believed to be a hell spawn
The truth is my dark past is never intentional
It's just the people
The people in my life were too afraid to step into my mind and help
They assumed I was too late
At the point of no return
I was labeled as soon to be dead
A suicidal freak
A f*cking demon
A monster and other things
And when in reality I'm a human being
And I'm not afraid to be myself
And neither should you
So I thank you all
For taking the time
To step into my mindset and come to Ascension Parish
I hope to see you all again soon
Love you all
Goodbye
And thank you for coming to Ascension Parish