Feelin' pain, and I hate the fame
So ashamed, and I'm filled with hate
Friendships fade, now they throwin' shade
Got my blade, I'll protect you babe
High up in the clouds to escape reality
Wish that I could wake up and see that it's all a fallacy
An illusion that was created by imagination
A delusion I'm perpetually infatuated with
Cause even in this game, I could never seem to quit
Feel no heartbeat, couldn't tell you what it means to really live
Shattered glass, scattered on the floor from broken mirrors
Got temptations in my head and my eyes overflow with tears
Voices in my head are all I ever seem to hear
And they say no one's gonna miss me if I were to disappear
Cause all my friends have left, got no one left to call
I'm calling out for help, so please don't let me fall
Feelin' pain, and I hate the fame
So ashamed, and I'm filled with hate
Friendships fade, now they throwin' shade
Got my blade, I'll protect you babe
Hiding in my sorrows, I know there's no tomorrow
Downing down this bottle, gotta stop this lifestyle
Always got in trouble, no one helps me with my struggles
Every day I go and huddle, like I'm drowning in a puddle
They think that I'm stupid, they don't see the blueprints
Can't undo what you did, can't undo what you did
I really can't be choosing, I'm not choosing to be losing
Yeah it's really that deep, when you cry yourself to sleep
Feelin' pain, and I hate the fame
So ashamed, and I'm filled with hate
Friendships fade, now they throwin' shade
Got my blade, I'll protect you babe