My First Heartbreak (feat. okgutta) Video (MV)

I'm lying to myself
I'm not over it
And I can tell
That i'm not even close to it
I remember my first heartbreak
Yeah, it feel like 2020 again
And now my heart black, you can't see in it got 5 percent tint
She know imma evil nigga, but she still gone come over, and drown in my sins
I cannot f*ck on a skeezer, now I just be f*cking on tens
I know that, I know you in love with me
I remember all them days you wasn't tryna f*ck with me
Now imma chose my other bitch, and take her with me overseas
Bitches love playing with my head, learned that back in 23'
Yeah, yeah, yeah i'm not over it
I'm not used to this
Sick of all the foolishness
I remember my first heartbreak yeah, I wish I could just erase that shit
It made me a monster yeah, I could never erase that bitch
Now I be dogging these bitches, and I don't even know why they take that shit
These niggas be saving these hoes, hell nah, nah, nah I can't save that shit
Now i'm so numb
You was number one
It ain't no holding on
I was having fun
I always f*ck it up
I know you had enough
I ain't never felt that shit, so I don't even know how to react to love
Yeah, ok gutta
I remember my first heartbreak
I sat there and cried like a bitch, in the mirror and shit, while I looked at my face
While I looked in the eyes of death and trauma you caused that didn't heal to this day
Why I keep telling lies to all of these women who want me in some type of way
Who am I to lie and say that wasn't lust who am I to keep you away
Baby take it slowly, you f*ck up the trust every time you treat me this way
I had you suck it up you always come in clutch for anytime I had to a bad day
You always came in a Chevy truck to pick me up, when I get stuck in the rain
Oh it's so much shit that we can do in here when I get in the backseat
Round' after round' Thirty some minutes have us sweating like some athletes
Thirty some minutes, after about a hour me and you destroy the bed sheets
Had you thinking bout' me did that shit on purpose, hit it until you can't forget me
You know I get you anything if you just ask why you always tryna swindle me
Why you always digging back into the past looking for something bad to pin on me
Why you always staying mad behind doors, you can tell me if you sick of me
Always getting mad i'm f*cking with these whores, and every single time they hit on me
I'm lying to myself
I'm not over it
And I can tell
That i'm not even close to it
Yeah, yeah, yeah i'm not over it
I'm not used to this
Sick of all the foolishness
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Woah, woah, woah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Woah, woah, woah