Azdi404 - impure intentions Lyrics

I've done it today
I've raised my arms to the sky
The lord stalled and wouldn't let me forget
& The devil laughed & wouldn't let it go
One offered hope and the other offered fairies
I was crushed in this miserable dilemma

Awaking from sleeping decades
Somewhat naked & dead
Counting lost years, some were given
Some were used up, but mostly taken

So I huddle with my back-stabbing frenemies
I can't afford to lose that side of human nature
True friends of the dark side they are
Excuse my intentions for being so impure

I glossed through flaming screenshots recovering my soul
Probing a crazy genie witchcraft-er
Reason my sanity and praise sensations
I'd love to extract moisture and more
I'm in sour dire

My lord
I worship Your Highness
And I have sinful emotions
In this blackened heart to experience
Before I tidy my notions

I need to witness darkness before light
Sadness before laughter
Madness before forgiveness
Excuse my intentions for being so impure

Stretching out my mind debunking theories
Locating a spare locket of time tucked in a corner
For one last trip back down memory lane
Where it all went wrong

I wanted to go back to when we were innocent
Where you and I played with the second hand of time
You, pulling it backward into the void it came from
Wanting to stay careless in the moment
And I, pushing it forward to see where tomorrow takes us
I wanted to watch you breathe into womanhood
Wanting to build a family tree
But a hiccup in time interfered
Laying out costume-made dreams as I watched
& you couldn't resist

So you migrated & the crucifying taste of it still lingers
And I dived into those sad saga territories
& I showed myself around
Taming those old inflections
& I can't be anything but a memory now

So I gift-wrapped myself in a poem you liked
And sent it to you shaped as a memorial of me
If you feel anything but sincerity
Excuse my intentions for being so impure

But I've done what I can today
I've raised my arms to the sky
So excuse my intentions for being so impure